PDF DOWNLOAD [Pagulusse Lugu elust sõjast ja rahust] AUTHOR Elin Toona Gottschalk

Pagulusse Lugu elust sõjast ja rahust


Rarely encountered in history books like Mesopotamia and Sudetenland
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seemed the interstices between wars but otherwise without context It wasn t ntil I d reached fifty that I began to learn about Estonia flourishing in its 22 years of independence before the Soviet Union ironically established to give power to the people began systematically to erase Estonia s language culture and finally its people in mass deportationsElin Toona Gottschalk writes A memoir is not a document about who did what and when on a specific date but who did what and when in a specific situation A memoir is a passing caravan of events and characters creating an indelible impression on eyewitnesses whether Age Seven Or Seventy Who seven or seventy who it down One person s "memoir becomes a book A hundred similar books become historyShe was born toward the end of "becomes a book A hundred similar books become historyShe was born toward the end of s brief period of independence during the Twentieth Century the first threat was the Russians then the Germans came to liberate them Estonia very soon found out what being liberated by Nazi Germany meant She was seven years old when her mother grandmother and she fled Estonia toward the end of World War II in an effort to get to the West and safety as their world came to pieces around themIt was about to get a whole lot worseETG opens her book not with her childhood but later in her life when her remarkable grandmother was mugged at age 91 in her home in London for 7 pounds ETG receives a call from her mother with whom she d had a problematical relationship early in life she leaves for the UK in order to be there for her grandmother Grandmother had started rhythmically stroking my fingers her way of telling me her journey would be no different from what we had already been through only this time and she was going on ahead instead of Mother Her face was calm and her eyes the color of Kaffir Boy uiet waters that had covered the earth since it was createdShe skips back to 1939 and with vivid and emotional expertise evokes her childhood world on the bay in a little town called Haapsalu I had no concept of mothers and fathers only of people whom I saw every day At that time in my life relationships were meaningless When grandmother first introduced me to her dear departed Erni it was in such a way that when I heard his name I wanted to hear She had never lost her husband but had only lost physical sight of him He was always included in our activities When we walked around the town snpaved paths and narrow streets my legs short my grandmother s old and tired we always stopped by grandfather s monument to rest on its base When we sat down grandmother never fail to greet her husband or exchange a few words with him I had the distinct impression that he both heard and Plants Used by the Indians of Mendocino County, California (1902) understood what she was sayingWith deftly poetic and compassionate skill ETG takes the time to introduce the people in her life mostly women her grandmother Ella Enno wife to a famous Estonian poet who had died of pneumonia at age 57 Earning a worker s wage Erni d spent his money on books rather than heating Great Aunt Alma whose emotions were expressed through playing the piano She kept house and grew vegetables and earned a bit of money offering piano lessonsETG s parents lived in Tallinn They were well known actors They visited occasionally bringing sophistication and cigarette smoke into the tiny house in Haapsalu From the intensely observant child s eye view ETG describes the slow increase in tension the adults won t tell the children anything whenever they wanted to talk seriously they told her to go pick dill even after there was no dill to pick as the Soviets encroach and then comes war I told Vilja a playmate I was going back to heaven when I diedShe said she was going to her other grandmother in FranceJesus was born in a stable I told her Where were you bornMother said I was bornnder a gooseberry bush said Vilja promptlyI was dropped off in Tallinn at Mrs Takk s house and when mother s theater season started I was brought here to HaapsaluVilja just nodded It made perfect sense Our gooseberry bushes were not thriving on account of the annual flooding and you needed to be born somewhere dryGrandmother was the primary caretaker of little Elin They were compatible personalities both artistic with a keen sense of poetry Both visionaries Mother was practical strong loathed anything having to do with religion or spiritual nature She was not the least bit domestic did not even know how to boil water and was appalled at her daughter for her apparent lack of looks her seeming clumsiness her odd estions and the fact that she was deemed tone deaf For the rest of her life ETG refused to sing because when she was about five she was tested by the theater crowd then dismissed for being tone deafWhen it came time to leave Aunt Alma refused She promised to keep the house for their return Mother in Elin s words became Father when he refused to go with them The three left late in 1944 first boarding a Polish boat When it is attacked the survivors are forced to the German coast scrabbling for shelter in tunnels and broken houses When the planes arrived they brought rain but it was not the rain mother had feared In the tunnel we had been aware of the bombers and felt the explosions but in the roofless ruin we were also seeing the plan. Of deportation to Siberia “INTO EXILE” is Elin’s personal account of the horrors she and her family experienced during WWII Raamat mis r gib rasketest aegadest oludest ja teemadest ilma
"Et Tahaks Lugejat Meelega Nutma "
tahaks lugejat meelega nutma v i okeerida Mis ei t henda et seal ei oleks nii nutmapanevat kui ka okeerivat Aga on ka liigutavat ja lootustandvat See raamat on ood vanaemale ja inimese suutlikkusele k igest l bi tulla J b ainult m istatuseks mis see on mis annab selle j ja suutlikkuse V imalik et sellised vanaemadRaamatu l pus on v ga hea selgitus sellele kuidas erinevad ksteisest pagulus ja emigratsioon ks j bki vaatama minevikku ja teine tahab sellest minevikust v imalikult kaugele tulevikku ja mujale Lisaks on seal ks kujundlikumaid inglise klassi hiskonna kirjeldusi Tagumine mbes kuuendik j b lej nust pisut kaootilisemaks ja eba htlasemaks aga see ei riku asja Tasub kindlasti lugeda Neid raamatuid mis niimoodi l bi loksutavad ei ole palju Khaled Hosseini Lohejooksja meenub aga vahe on selles et kui Hosseini lugu on fiktsioon siis Toona oma on p Autor ise kasutab k ll terminit "faktsioon l iming faktidest ja kujutlustest Nii raske ja s dantmurdev aga iming faktidest ja kujutlustest Nii raske ja s dantmurdev aga nii imelise tundlikkusega ja paeluvalt kirja pandud et selle k estpanemine osutub raskeks katsumuseks ja loen raamatu l bi v hem kui n dalaga T lge on ka kiiduv rtRaamat tekitab minus suure igatsuse vanaema j rele ja ratab soovi minna vanaema hauale k nalt viima Vanaema oli mulle petanud kui t htis on et pimeduse peletamiseks oleksid k nlad alati k ep rast kirjutab Toona L hen ritan ennast n d uesti t kkidest kokku liimida Kindla peale on see selle aasta ks parimaid lugemiselamusi K llaltki mahukas raamat aga selle lugemine l ks lennates Keeruline ja kurb jutustus mis n itab v ga h sti raskusi mis v ivad ette tulla siis kui sa arvad et see k ige keerulisem aeg on selja taha j etud Olukord kus pagulaste jaoks oli k ige keerulisem kohanemine rahuaja eluga on midagi mida vast keegi ei suuda ette kujutada kui nad ise ei ole sama teekonda l bi teinud K ik r givad sellest kui This is an amazing and powerful book It is truly a book everyone should read See raamat ootas mul oma lugemisj rge juba ilmumisest saadik st 2017 aastast Vahepeal j dsin l bi lugeda Eli Erinevus pagulase ja emigrandi vahel seisneb selles et pagulane ei lahku kodumaalt vabatahtlikult saabub sihtkohta halbade aimdustega ning elab edaspidi maal millest ei saa kunagi kodu tegelikust kodumaast saab n nda kaotatud paradiisMingil hetkel m istsin et loen seda raamatut ja ihkan j da l ppu sest siis saavad asjad korda ja k ik on h sti Raamatu l pule l hemale j Inside the Asylum udes m istsin aga seda et Elini jaoks see on juba m dunud ajalukku j nud lugu kuid kui paljude jaoks see on praegune tegelikkus P genemine alandus v itlemine lootussk ja ikka pettumine pettumine pettumine Ja kui l puks see dusunen gu l bi saab siis kes oled l puks sina Oh kui pikalt ma seda raamatut lugesin Tunnen r mu et see l puks l bi sai Raamat r gib autori p genemisest 1944 aastal teekonnast Inglismaale ja mis sai edasi See ei olnud lihtne ega meeldiv raamat ja ma sain sna kiiresti aru miks see lugu mulle l puks ikkagi ebas mpaatseks j iSelles loos oli samas ikkagi palju ka sellist mis mulle meeldis ausus detailirohkus Autor ei ilusta seda mis nende perega lahkumise jooksul juhtus ega ka seda milline oli tema elu enne lahkumist Mulle meeldis v ga kui suur osa raamatu algusest oli rohkem kirjutatud nagu lapse silmade mitte nagu t iskasvanu tagasivaade lapsep lve sest see pilk on erinev ja t iskasvanuna on v ga lihtne n ha asju teisiti Mulle meeldis et autor teadvustas seda ja eristas lapse pilku t iskasvanu omast ka teksti seesMis mulle raamatu ebas mpaatseks tegi oli selle lugu eestlusest ja autori otsusest oma lapsele eesti keelt mitte petada Mulle j i see arusaamatuks Nii mitmeski kohas oli kirjutatud et ta tahtis enda jaoks alles hoida m lemad maailmad m lestuste Eesti ja tuleviku Inglismaa L puks l heb ta Ameerikasse ja kuigi ta ei katkesta oma sidemeid Eestiga ei anna ta sihilikult seda sidet edasi Mind teeb selline otsus kurvaks Mulle meeldis et autor tles selle ausalt ja otse v lja aga minu jaoks tekitas see otsus suure vastuolu lej nud raamatuga See on keeruline teema ja eks iga hel ole selle kohta oma arvamus A fantastic writer with a profound story Ms Toona tells of her brief childhood in Estonia during which it is occupied by the Soviets invaded by the Nazi I had the pleasure of meeting Elin a few months ago at a local book signing event We exchanged books I gave her my mother s biography and she gave me her book Into Exile I was blown away after I finished reading itInto Exile is very applicable to the times in today s history with Russia trying to take over the Baltic States again Our soldiers are now stationed in Estonia to protect the country from being overrun as it once was by the Russians 70 years ago Into Exile is both humorous and shocking Elin s touching memoir dives deep into the realities of her and her family s life their journey of survival during WWII and the many challenges and obstacles they faced to regain their freedom and independence Elin is living history Thank you Elin for sharing your personal story When I was young Estonia didn t existThat part of the world was one long pink block on the map of Europe and Asia the letters USSR stretched across from West Germany to the Pacific Ocean Estonia was one of those names In September 1944 seven year old Elin her mother and grandmother fled Estonia ahead of the advancing Soviet Army escaping the risk. .
Es and the explosions all around s The noise was deafening "The siren the rattle of antiaircraft guns and the explosions were the same as sual but now we could also see "siren the rattle of antiaircraft guns and the explosions were the same as sual but now we could also see Raquel, the Jewess of Toledo underbellies of the bombers Wave after wave of them illuminated by flares searchlights and tracers The planes formed a droning moving canopy surrounded by smoke in a steady stream of dark objects falling vertically Once in a while a larger object burst into flames and spiraled down along with them Everything that hit the ground explodedLost for a time they moved from one place to another as refugees The Germans despised them as filthy foreigners they tookp temporary arters in slimy basements ruined rooms and in all these places Grandmother would set about trying to wrest a modicum of civilization out of the chaos as Mother went out and scavengedThey met A Lot Of Desperate Women Of All Ages And Children lot of desperate women of all ages and children of whom Elin played with and some who were extraordinarily cruel especially at the school she was forced to attend before it too was bombed Run by a fanatical Nazi teacher Elin was subjected to bullying and humiliation nder that teacher s merciless eye War seem to be something only the men enjoyed Design for Six Sigma until they were caught and made prisonersThey took refugee for a while in a cemetery discovering that there was already a community living among the vaults and tombs Winter was even crueler than the Hitler Youth bullies and the bombers the children could tell where they were headed to bomb by how high or low they flew as well as the directionntil spring of 1945 brought the end of the war But by no means the end of cruelty danger or suffering Some of the roughest reading in the entire book is here after the war interspersed between painfully insightful observations and occasional moments of Otis Oldfield uite haunting I choose the word deliberately beauty Or emotional wrench such as seeing her father then going out and pullingp some grass and stuffing it in his pocket so that he will not forget her when he leaves again for goodBy the war s end there were some 13 million displaced persons Grandmother Mother and Elin among them Mother continued to strike out coming back when she could with bits of food and clothing Elin was dressed largely in cast offs and rags by the time they at last were able to make their way to England She finally observes that the difference between civilization and not is the existence of toiletsWhen they reach England with all their despised bundles including Grandmother s carefully preserved mememtos of her poet husband there is a hitch the cruel indenture that basically made slaves of foreign workers did not allow for a child For a year or so Elin lived in the woods by day and slept in a rented bed in an ancient cottage without plumbing ntil the inevitable disaster after she drank two cups of cocoaAfter the authorities discovered her she was put in an orphanage though she spoke no English and for a time she was made into a drudge and despised and abused as a German Her treatment improved slightly when they discovered that she was not actually German but she was still putting time into service than into education and so the all important 11 passed her by Her mother and grandmother were appalled and angry They like so by Her mother and grandmother were appalled and angry They like so displaced persons had come from educated backgrounds musicians scientists professors artists of all kinds now pushing brooms and working in asbestos factories or coal minesShe ends p in her mid teens working at a loom in a textile factory The setting is Wciv, Volume 1 unrelentinglygly the noise is so bad she begins going deaf It isn t Even Monsters Need Haircuts until she gets away for a brief vacation to Holland where she sees beauty again that she makes a promise that she is going to do something with her life rather than stick at the loom because that is easiestWe don t actually see her become a writer and part time actor though her first Estonian novel won her an award I would have loved to see that but this memoir is primarily about the three women and how being refugees from an erased country affected their lives and their relationships and how they deal with being permanent exiles due to no fault of their ownETG becomes successful enough that she attracts the notice of the KGB which in turn leads to an FBI and CIA file and some brief but weird experiences in the spy world And this after she reaches this country and is invited to a dinner party and then abused for being a Nazi she has to leave and hide in the woodsOutside of that adulthood is good to her and as time passes the iron curtain at last disintegrates For me Estonia had become a mythical country and my muse It was my inner voice speaking to me in a secret language When she finally gets back to Estonia she is only able to recognize the location of her own home by walking about Haapsalu and trying to find the view from the kitchen window that she had loved as a small girl In so many ways her exile brings her full circle but notite The book is full of heartbreak insight beauty and the nheralded and heroic actions of women with no weapons no power but a determination to fashion a bit of civilization around them one castoff or abandoned item at a time Sometimes it was so harrowing that I could only read a few pages in a session but I always came back to this compelling fascinating story. Ollowed by an even confusing peacetime in class conscious post war England while adult DP's and Elin struggled to find their identi.

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